In The End

Seeing the decay

In the end

By myself

Standing in the fire alone

Abandoned by my mind

My soul wandering on its own

Everything crumbles

It all falls apart

Self absorbed

Stuck in this maze

Is this what I was destined for

Handfuls of drugs don’t fix the pain

Overdose, comatose

None of it helps anyways

Feel like the K is lying

And the anti depressants aren’t trying

Substance misuse doubles as emotional abuse

In the end it’s all the same

Twinkle twinkle little star

How much time goes by until you fall

Until you burn out until you fade

Until you’ve reached your end of days.

Already accepted I’ve deserved it all

Karmic repercussions

That I continue to pay

Debt I owe for what I’ve done

I don’t mind saying I’m the one to blame

And that it was all my fault

Its all like nothing in the end

It all amounts to zero

The only thing that seems real is my nightmares

At least that is something I can feel

Daydream to ease my mind

Slowly helps to pass the time

Can’t believe what this pain has done to me

Been at war with myself my whole life

Hate these fuckin games

Sick of the back and forth

The scars that I wear are signs of where I’ve been

They will remain

In the end

I just want to make amends

I just want to keep the peace

I just want to find a way

For all this darkness to release

I can’t tell you why

It doesn’t make sense to me

If you could go inside my head

You would find that you agree

Living everywhere but the present

Falling short of stable

In the end

Here at the edge

Wondering if I’ve ever really loved anything

Or if I will ever to be able