Holding On

Feel like I’ve been talking to myself forever

Maybe now I’m finally ready to listen

To what’s been being said all along

Maybe I am ready to let go

Instead of just holding on

Now I can see my light shining through

Rather than it being up on a shelf

Abandoned and covered in dust

Under a sheet of suppression and denial

Repressed and left to be forgotten

I’ve barely been holding on for awhile

Not wanting to embrace what I’ve been given

Looking for all the answers

Trying to verify things that never were

Problems that transcended this reality

Rooted in traumas that were never originally mine

Is it a gift or a curse?

Would there have been a different path

To discovery of self

Will it actually make all the difference

When my light comes off the shelf

How deep are you willing to look

How far are you willing to go

When you get there are you willing to surrender

And are you willing to forgive yourself

Are you willing to find love

Are you willing to relax and let the tension go

Are you willing to release

Or will you just keep holding on

Do you actually truly want to heal

After you had lost yourself

Stoke the smoldering embers

Relight the flame that was burning out

Or rather start a new fire all together

After all the old fuel has ran out

Being called to come back down

To spread my wings and lift myself up off the ground

To cherish the gift I’ve been given

To take my light down off the shelf

And let it outshine the darkness

That I am no longer holding onto inside

Light my path as I move forward

As I make my way back home

Illuminate what is in front me

As I am no longer just holding on

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