Departure

To depart from one way, to seek a new path

The destination is not clear, there is no going back

The old you is gone,

Who you once were, no longer is

The you of yesterday has departed

Take a 90 then 180, flip a 360, & another 90

End up right back where I am

Drowning in the lights

And drops of the serotonin hits

Like rain that won’t stop

Imposter syndrome on 10

Slice the tension with a knife

When losing twice adds up to a win

And everything else gets cut down

I find myself staring you in the eyes,

But my mind is far away

Before todays me departs

As todays me drifts away

Feeling like giving up

Then waking up to try another way

I thought being alone would be the cure

But a different me shows up everyday.

Wondering who I should trust

Wondering who’s next to runaway

There’s light inside, I just gotta find the switch

Nothing new here it’s always been like this

Trying to get back to where I came from

To a time where everything used to be ok

But actually was it ever?

I can feel that you’re looking for me

Don’t worry I’m looking for me too

And I bet you find me first

The recently departed

The me I used to know

Just me leading us both on

Now we’re both outta place

Shouldn’t have to black out to remember

Shouldn’t have to self destruct to figure it out

The truth will find a way to the surface

Just like it always does

It flows like sine waves

It reflects like a mirror

I’m goin my own way, and it’s not always right

Eyes closed in the darkness, walking blind down the path of life

Drink until the demons depart

Then drink more until I find them in the bottom of a bag

You tempted me

& I caved in

I’ve got a complex mind

And not a lot of faith in the me of tomorrow

You’ve got alot of layers, and an even greater capacity for sorrow.

I am recently departed

And you’re still waiting to leave

Waiting for your departure

Maybe someday you and me will meet.

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7/15/23