Closure

I thought you were the game

But I was the one playing me

Spinning the bottle

Russian roulette with myself

It’s taken me this long to figure me out

And I still feel like an acquaintance

Like I don’t know me for shit

I am the one in the dark

I am the one who was going crazy.

Numb and toxic

Maybe you were a blessing

Maybe you were a lesson

Maybe you were a North Star and I was a black hole

Maybe you just needed closure

Thought I had you figured out

Logical reasoning

Wishful guessing

I knew at some point it would all burn down

No surprise

But now it makes sense

Maybe I just needed a catalyst

Maybe I just needed closure

Maybe I’d see the light if I would open my eyes

Maybe I could get a breath if id come up for air

Maybe I would hear the answers if I would open my heart

Maybe id forget my past if I could forgive myself

Maybe I could get inside if I didn’t lock myself out.

Maybe there’s a bigger picture if I would just open the window

So much greatness to be had

But I’m good at making the same mistakes

And even better at self sabotage

The reality of disappointment staring back at me in the mirror

Shatter the glass like my soul

Pick up the pieces and start over

Trying to meet me where I am at

But I can’t stand to be near myself

Maybe I’ll quit running

Maybe someday I won’t have to ask what the fuck happened

Maybe eventually I’ll be ok with being loved

Maybe

Glad you found the time to let go

It makes me smile

Now there’s nothing left but memories

And they make me smile

Recognize that what once was no longer is

At least we’ve both found closure

It made me smile

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07/5/23