Hurt

Been listening to songs on repeat lately

Something about the way they hurt

Like heroin for the heart

Like ketamine for the mind

Let’s Go Get Stoned

Life’s so Sublime

I’ve got a high tolerance

As I go line after line

Had all I can take of myself

Overloaded

Talking to me face to face

You would never know it

Out of the ordinary

Never feeling the same

Screaming while I’m smiling

Like I’m going fucking insane

Tripping cuz I’m stressin

Insides turning out

I thought we worked through this

Thought we had it figured out

Deciphering the hieroglyphs

Etched into my soul

Can’t understand what I’m reading

Or which way I should go

Like I’m blind and can’t read brail

Paralyzed and I can’t feel

Slipping but I’m hanging on

In case you couldn’t tell

The only time the demons whisper

Is when they don’t fucking yell

What the fuck is happening?

Sick to my stomach

Crawling in my skin

Weight on my shoulders

Here we go again

Elevated heart rate

Cortisol through the roof

Ears won’t stop ringing

Like phone that I can’t mute

Grit my teeth and bare it

The pain doesn’t stop

All of the excuses

Lies piled to the top

Everything said just to justify

These failures of myself

A little extra fuel

On a fire that’s burning out

Maybe happiness will only last a day

I’m guna embrace it

Maybe today is the end

Then I’m guna face it

I keep telling me I’m not gunna make it

The truth fuckin hurts

I’ve bailed on everything that’s ever been good for me

No matter what it is,

I continue to run from me

Feeling too far gone

It’s to late to start

Blind leading the blind

as I walk with me in the dark

The insignificance

of my significance

Is magnificent

Yet still we carry on

Seeking comfort in the pain

That plays from song to song

Burning the candle from both ends

Until I meet myself in the middle

Not much ground left to stand on

So where do we go from here

Maybe we close this chapter

Maybe this is the end of the book

Maybe there was a different path

That we should’ve took

So I turn the music up louder

As the hurt floods my mind

I’ve got a high tolerance

As I go line after line

And in the end it will all be fine

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